sick

one of the worst things to be on the weekend is sick. arrg. i woke up this morning feeling terrrible. slept a lot of the day away in between my mom making me take pills. and feel slightly better.

bitsand pieces of my vacation.

vacation was good. slightly stressful at times. but good.

me and my grandma.

raymond and mary.

believe it or not, but when the parents were playing raber, they were 10x louder than us kids. . . they were completely out of control.

scrapbooking. ..

uhh. that's my dad, and my grandma brandishing her cane.

ben adding to his already large collection of rubber bands. . . (note: if you are ever lacking something to do at a family gathering. round everybody up and have a rubber band battle. .. it's a blast!)
shopping with my girl cousins. . . mostly fun. and out of control! :)

just wanted to let everybody know that this has been the best new years eve party i've had. . . lots of fun. . . and now i wonder why i'm tired. o well.

jodi and anita.

although this picture is blurry. . . i love it! it's so funny. in it is pictured a shopping cart. if you can find it. . .

um. javan with a mexican hat. :)

went to longwood gardens today. so i'm mostly tired. some pictures coming on that alittle later.

man. i love my vacation. but i miss her. i miss walking down the halls. laughing uncontrollably. pretending like we have everything under control. fun times on yearbook :)

ahh. christmas vacation. :) blissful sleep. playing games. making bread. just hanging out.
my grandparents got here. so i should go talk to them. they like watching me on the computer. my cousins are coming. . . and that makes me even happier. we should have some good chats.

oh. and i named the snails. sidney and sadie. :) now for the fish. only problem is. . .. they look alike! :)

o my. yesterday was fun.
singing at evergreen estates
school banquet
shopping :)
went to gym night (almost nobody was there) so . ..
went to wal-mart.
i bought fish again!, cause i missed my other fish so much. so now i have and aquarium with 5 little angel fish and 2 snails, and it is so much fun for me :)

coming up next. . ..
is

Christmas Vacation!YipPE!

i have so much to look forward too. . .

Cousins.

Sleeping.

Wearing red, and playing fun games.

of course, don't forget eating good food. and watching it snow. cause i love watching it snow.

i'm gonna miss people. but no schoolwork. i guess i can hole up in a corner, read, paint, write, it'll be good.

random pic. of youth group.

mia and me

ok. so life is slightly busy. i'm supposed to study for tests, study bible memory, and a poem. i keep procrastinating. i worked. and did homework.

now i'm only taking it easy. me and maria took some pics. because we clash so much tonight. it was fun. that girl makes me laugh.

my "brights" are sadly dead!

ok. so tonight. i'm trying to think of some brilliant transactions for my accounting project due tomorrow in third period. but the big problem is. that my bright lights aren't working properly. (not sure if it's from due to lack of use, or lack of rest).

family

ok. so we took family pictures while my brother was home from the mental intitue in which he resides decided that he was good enough to come home for a while. :)

my family is totally out of control.!.

you know what!?
. vacation is fun . and i can make pumpkin pies . i never knew i could actually make yummy things besides bread . hanging out with school friends i think is out of control . but totally cool. i want to go to a book store . and drink coffee . i think i'm going to be calm cool and collected. (at least some off the day) so you might want to come and see me. ok. so i'm not that bad. :) . o well. i need to work today . i'm working with rosina and anita, so that makes me happy .

w e l l i h a v e n ' t p o s t e d i n f o r e v e r . ! l i f e i s o k . i g u e s s . i ' m s u r v i v i n g . v a c a t i o n i s c o m i n g u p . t h a t m a k e s m e h a p p y . ! g o i n g t o w o l f r o c k . t h a t s h o u l d b e i n t e r e s t i n g . : ) e l y a m i g h t c o m e o v e r , a n d t h a t m a k e s m e r e a l l y h a p p y . ! w r i t i n g l i k e t h i s m a k e s m e h a p p y t o o . c a u s e i t ' s s o o d d . a n y w a y . i n e e d t o s t u d y b i b l e m e m o r y.


t o mo r r o w i g e t o f f o f s c h o o l a t 1 . !

so i feel like all i've been doing recently is working, sleeping, and doing homework. - running around like a chicken without a head. doing lots of things. but not making a difference in anything.

the cruel injustices to the young
kills
it kills all the innocence
that they once had

it’s so wrong.
to see the defenseless
exposed.
in such distorted conduct.

where are their protectors?
where are the ones who
care for them?
somebody to embrace them
and let them cry.

living life cautiously

"The master was furious. 'That's a terrible way to live! It's criminal to live cautiously like that! If you knew I was after the best, why did you do less than the least?" -Matthew 25:26

This verse is amazing!

it makes me think.

this man was being careful

with what he had received from his master.

and look where it got him.

what are we doing

with what God

has given

us. ? .

lack of creativity

the most annoying thing in the worlds is when i lack all sense of creativity. and am required to write a poem or do things for yearbook. some days i just can't think that way. so why do people require certain designated times to do certain things.? why write a poem when there is no dream behind it? why design something you have no goal for? when i have nothing creative in my system. there is no way i can write a poem in a certain meter that makes any sense. is this what school is made to do?
to make me do things i'm practically incapible of? to make me fry my brains on /
*orbital notation
*and noble gas notation of all kinds of electons? .
*to figure out how much money i could make if i put $100,000 in bonds with a 5.5% interest rate in 30 years?
*to count the sylables in each line of a poem and decide which sylable gets more emphasis.
*and then copy that style and write a poem.
to know things like/
*the Hund's rule,
*and line emission spectrum.
to see/
*how many emperors were bribed by the cardinals

ok. ok. school's not that bad. somedays it just seems impossible. but i'm doing ok. i'm surviving. =D

procrastination.

ok. so today one of the teachers implied that procrastination is sin. . .and i was like woah! wait! is procrastination a sin? and so we got out of 10-15 minutes talking about this procrastination.

*what defines sin?
*when we procrastinate are we doing the best of our ability?
*why would people procrastinate? is it because they aren't good stewards of their time?
*do people actually work better under pressure?

anyway. discussions no matter what they are about are better than class. so i begin to say things i normally wouldn't. . .

while shopping on saturday. . . i watched a rainbow form. it was amazingly beautiful! it had such brilliant colors. . .

man. this crazy guy wouldn't move. so . i just took the picture. notice it is a double rainbow. :)

i rediscovered my love of eating dove chocolates. . . and i don't think it's gonna be good.

today

played in a vball tournament/
and we did terrible/
absolutely, positively terrible!
but, it was ok/
i survived/
the pain wasn't completely unbearable/
obviously./
because i'm still here. whatever/

went shopping./
sat in the parking lot/
eating dove chocolates and pringles/
i love my friends!/

and/
tonight. was. a. party!!! /
it was way random/
when do i hang out with a friend/
with my family?/
usually never./
but tonight/
was DIFFERENT!/
it was fun!/
sitting on the floor./
and doing random things./


my word.! i'm so hyper. and in a crazy mood. i feeling like doing something crazy . but i guess i won't. . . i get an extra hour tonight. and plan to make use of it. i prolly should do it sleeping. but i think i'll pass on that. because when i have enough of sleep i don't do random things like i did today. and i think that is sad. if everybody was like me. i think people should often not get enough of sleep. although i do sometimes feel bad for the people around me if i'm in a crazy mood an they aren't but i guess it's their problem, and they should stay up late nights too. o my. i think i'll stop before anything worse happens.